Why is no good? (250906)

Everything is fate when there are happiness there will bond to be sadness. Just like today it was plan to be a happy ocassion but i just cant be happy and worst i have to act as if i am happy. Who really know i was acting to be happy and i am trouble with pain and problems? I went thru another hard and sad path in my work again. Life is always a cycle you keeping learning and do mistakes. Seriously i am an emotional guy i cant really accept i done mistakes easily. But today i have done a bad thing which i feel very guilty. It seem that the world is like falling upon me and i feel the load is pliling onto me.